BeautifulAvari

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Sufferin' for Sufferage by BeautifulAvari, literature

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Sufferin' for Sufferage

I have no idea how I ended up feeling like this. I am depressed. I am fat. I am lazy, a bad daughter, a bad friend and a worse lover. This is not who I feel I am. I am vibrant, I am funny, I am beautiful no matter my pant size. Fun to be around, exciting and unpredictable. This is who I am deep down. All of this is put aside for the cooking. Put aside for the cleaning, the opinions, paperwork and hand holding! All of the incessant needs take everything from me! My creativity, my free spirt and my soul! I give so much, everyone takes a bit and that leaves me with nothing for myself.

Unspoken by BeautifulAvari, literature

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Unspoken

*spoken* So here goes nothing! I know this sounds funny this might sound just strange, but lately I feel like I'm caught in a maze. Foggy, defeated, my shit's caught up in a haze. I'm tripping; I'm calling while desperately falling into these emotions I cannot explain. I want you, I need you I hate that I hurt you I hope you believe me 'cause truly, sincerely, I'm sorry. One day please forgive me, I wish I could find my way back and end up in your arms again. I wish that I'd stayed inside your embrace, with our bodies entangled. Before I knew it my emotions were stronger than my hollow shell could contain, Burstin

The Inner Voice by BeautifulAvari, literature

Tales of A Pre-Teen clutz by BeautifulAvari, literature

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Tales of A Pre-Teen clutz

The summer after my sixth grade was always action packed. Day in, day out, and halfway into the night, my best friend and I always found something to do, making the hours until we could leave the house pass more quickly. On normal nights, our pastimes consisted of normal things for twelve-year-old girls to do. Things like singing karaoke until all hours of the night, creating new and inventive hairstyles to wear to the coffee house the next day, inventing new outfit combinations, to planning our dream joint wedding, down to the flowers, dresses and locations. That ritual worked out perfectly fine for about a month. After that, we started

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Burn by BeautifulAvari, literature

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Burn

Bright matchsticks flickering lights the heat searing my fingertips. Just the one match illuminates my face teardrops and letters. I read and reread that final expression of your "love" over and over until the tears threaten to extinguish the flame. Why did you leave when things were going so well? Why did you flee without the slightest warning? I love you and those words are true, whether or not you believe me. Like that match, I pray that someday, this pain will too extinguish.

I'll Miss You by BeautifulAvari, literature

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I'll Miss You

Nothing more than a little girl, no more than three years old I wanted nothing more than to spend the day bouncing on your knee. As I got older, to a girl of about five, all I wanted to do was to drive about and go "faster than the airplanes" Time passed insanely fast before we knew it, I was nine. Sick as a dog on Christmas, unable to be with you, So what did you do? You brought Christmas to me. Years went by like days. days like hours marked off a calendar one by one. Happy birthday to me, it's FINALLY my Sweet Sixteen, and it was all the sweeter because you were there! The time that passes, It's more evident

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Innocence by BeautifulAvari, literature

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Innocence

I remember it, us, four and five sitting ar our marble breakfast bar every Sunday. Children played in the toyroom, while adults had martinis around a blazing fire. Everything seemed so exquisite, but to a little girl of four, she's Alice and her world, Wonderland. Why is it while gaining age our childlike innocence retreats? One day evil is a myth, seen only on the silver screen and hte next it's lurking around every corner, waiting to snatch us up and open our eyes. I can't help but think what would happen if for only one day the innocence we once had we should regain. If for one day we saw the earth through the e

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Darkness by BeautifulAvari, literature

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Darkness

Emptiness, that's all I've felt without you. Loneliness, it envelopes my heart, for it has nothing in it to fight it off. Darkness, encases my eyes, because you're not there to flip the switch. You never knew this, but you were my everything sky, land, water and mind. You, the foundation of my entirety. Thousands of times, I wanted to tell you exactly what you mean to me, and each thousand times I discovered a reason not to. Maybe I should have told you, made you understand all of this, but instead I just let you walk away, leaving my heart forever, taking all light and joy with you.

Wallflower by BeautifulAvari, literature

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Wallflower

The whole point of life, is living it! "Participating" so to speak. But if living is what life's all about, why is it that so many are afraid to do it? Instead of rockin out to that LAST song; DANCING, like there's NO tomorrow, living it up! Most sit back, and blend into the scenery. Covering the dancefloor of life with millions of wallflowers. Beautiful daisies that fade into the woodworks

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Nov 4
United States
Deviant for 20 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: Los Angeles

Favorite style of art: Dia De Los Muerto, folk, Graffiti, Street Art, anything visually stimulating!

Favourite Visual Artist

Shepard Faiery

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Black Keys, Weezer, White Stripes, Candye Kane, The Liars Handshake, The Beatles, The Cure

Favourite Writers

Laurie Nataro, Savid Sedaris, Neil Gaimen, Edgar Allen Poe

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pen, canvas and a microphone!

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writing, singing, painting, exploring the world around me

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BeautifulAvari

Jul 9, 2010

Mon Dieu!

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I cannot believe that it has been 5 years sunce I have updated. I went from having the internet at my fingertips to living a life without it for a while. So, lets see, since I've written last I have obviosly broken up with Ian, I fell madly back into love with the first person I ever kissed and loved. We were together for four years.I learned a lot about myself in that time. How to love someone through all of their faults and see what it is that is good in them, how their strengths complement your weaknesses and vice versa. It was a very tough thing to end, but I am happy to say that even though we're not what we want to be at the moment, we